Call me crazy, but I found that being diagnosed with severe depression.. made me more depressed. It was when they pinpointed the depression that I realized maybe that is why I don't want to do anything anymore. My house has been dirty for like the first time ever.. and anytime Anthony (hiruke) wants to spend time with me and asks me what I want to do.. I just kind of stare blankly and can't really think of anything. When he makes offers of Anime watching and the like.. I still just kind of sit there. *sigh* I wish that I could go out somewhere and magically bump into all my friends the way he can. Most of my closest friends live in Houston. It's so dirty there I really never want to move back. It's a shame they have to be all grouped there. Why can't we all move to Arizona or the Virgin Islands or something.. How about Japan or California..
I have also been told to be less picky about whom I spend my time with.. but I just can't seem to be friends with people that don't respect my time, or care enough to give a phone call if they had to break our plans. Most people aren't into the sorts of things I like, and most geeks have a god complex, or are so geeky I can't stand to be seen with them. Unfortunately vanity is not beyond me since I am a Leo, and seem to like to maintain my appearances. Meaning if the person I hang around knows no ettiquette, it reflects badly on me. As for the rest of the population, I tend to not get along too well with most females, and I don't tolerate idiots well. I think that sums it up. I apparently am doomed to be lonely always, and it is apparently my own doing.